Hard Time

Had prog today and then home. Nothing much to talk about..
I've got nothing to say. I don't wish to say anything about prog today because thinking about it,
it made me kinda pissed off. Not in the mood now..

Till here.

Choices

Sometimes, choices in life are difficult. Because there's two consequences..
Make the right choice or regret the wrong choice you made.
I'm facing a difficult situation currently, spent many days thinking about this damn thing.

But I guess there wasn't any conclusion to this at all.
Recalling and the memories seem to come alive somehow. You know I miss them..
You seemed like a changed person recently, I wanna know the real reason why.

But I know that even if I knew it, I can't do anything and I know it myself..
That I don't even wish to know it because I know I wouldn't be able to take it.
Sometimes I really wonder why does a simple word 'love' have to be so difficult to deal with.

Go think about the times when we went through thick and thins together.
Tears, Joy, Laughter, Jealousy, Quarrels and most importantly OBSTACLES.
So you think this r/s is dispensable? So be it.. You think you've done a lot you said you did.

Rmbr what you said?
"I will put in happy memories to push the bad memories to the back of your mind."
You think the happy memories you gave me are enough to push all the bad memories to the back of my mind?
Don't even think so alright?
because that's not even the case! You're inserting bad memories once again..

All the sweet and nice things you've said.
You'll never let me go even if I want to because you'll pull me back no matter how much it takes.
So you're telling me that all that you've said are bullshit?

No, our actions are telling me so. Just because of some things that you want, you changed.
At this time of the month last year, the same thing happened and now?
History repeated itself.

You promised me so hard that history wouldn't repeat itself when you asked me for a chance.
But look at what's happening now. Everything's repeating itself again..
Once again, my heart's being put through a hard time. I'm not as happy as ever anymore.

Tired

Back from the 3 day programme camp. Overall, FUN (:
At least I enjoyed although I was the last to bathe on the first night.

Summary:

Day 1

• Reported to camp at 10am
• Had some activities and off to ECP
• Night cycling and back to centre at 5.30am
• Leg muscles were aching

Day 2

• Woke up at 10 plus to bathe.
• Had activites and AC
• Suppose to go home to get the donation card but I went to Jolene's house instead
• Went to Bedok to meet Eileen
• To City Hall to meet the rest
• Singapore Flyer looking at night view. Kinda cool! (:
• Took pictures and back to centre.
• Watch Exorcism of Emily Rose till 2am then slept.

Day 3

• Last day of the camp, kinda sad.
• Woke up, water parade.
• Morning P.T. Kinda vigorous..
• Went out to Orchard
• Sat at Starbucks for awhile then to Taka for Seoul Garden
• Ate ate and ate.
• Home sweet home

& Once again, my mucles are aching. Rawr!

I miss you

In other words

I've got one complain to make. Urghhhh!

Firstly, typical Singaporeans behaviour in public tansport (Bus, MRT).
I guess many realized that you have no privacy when you're on these public transport right?
Because whenever you text, the person behind or beside would somehow peep at what you're typing.
In other words, this is called BUSYBODY. Just the word to describe typical Singaporeans -.-

Wassup with peeping at other's texts? Very interesting huh?
Therefore, when I was on the bus on Wednesday night on my way home, this uncle and aunty.
One next to me and the other was standing beside me was peeping at my text.
Then I typed, 'Fuck you. See what see.' Immediately, the face changed.
Urgh, irritants.

I really don't understand why they like to peep at other's text.
Whatever. Till here.. Going out with mum soon.

In other words, hold my hand.
In other words, darling kiss me.
In other words, please be true.
In other words, I love you.

Sometimes when we touch

Happy First Year Fourth Month!

6 days after I last blogged and here I am again.
Many things happened and I guess it's just a matter of time on when I will break down.
I don't know what to do and how to continue coping so well.

Broke down twice during programme in centre on Wed.

Programme Camp on Monday till Wed.

I hope I would enjoy? But I know I'll still cry every night.

I'll wet my sleeping bag somehow.

I seem to miss you whenever I can't see you.

You're like my everyday drug, my ecstacy to keep me going.

I love you.

Lost

I know it has been long since I've blogged. Whatever it is, just a summary of everything..
Extended Curriculum is as usually boring. So not much about it..

Reporting to centre almost everyday. I think I see them more than I see my mum now.
Have to report again on Sunday for the rehearsal.
Only backstage crew and I'm unfortunate enough to be in the backstage crew.

That's all. Till I'm back again (:

I know I shouldn't but I just can't help it.
I don't know what to do now, I feel so lost.

Tummy Ache sucks

Having tummy ache since ytd but nothing has been wanting to come out. How irritating..
Currently in Com lab again. So dumb right? I'm always updating when I'm in the com lab.
Too bad lah. My Dad don't allow me to use com at home & Mom's overseas.
Gonna save money to get myself one portable small laptop and the small internet stick.

So that I can use internet wherever I go :D So cool right.
I've been asking my Mum to get my that stick but she refused. How bad!
Bitch is once again next to me playing with photoshop because her comp can't get onto the net.
She keeps saying that it's super cool and she just asked me one question..

"Is it obvious that I photoshopped it?"


I shook my head in disagreement and she continue photoshopping the picture.
Okay, now, looking at the picture again, she has disfigured the clouds.
Poor clouds! O: Alright, I'll update till here. Continue when I can use the com.
& I've put up the tagboard again okay. So start tagging me now! :D

Materialistic people ^^ Just kiddinggggg..